Hemmed In!
The other week Helen and I went to
the supermarket to do the Christmas food shop. Whilst there, with my face mask
on and surrounded by busy people and noise I missed a call from someone dear to
me who is experiencing a torrid time in their life and while trying to call
that person back a call came from another person I also love who needed reassurance.
Suddenly, I felt overwhelming anxiety flood through me, as if I was hemmed in
from every direction and it swamped me and threatened my ability to cope. I
could feel the panic rising in me and had a challenge controlling it. For me,
the confident, cope with whatever is thrown at me character that I normally am
this was a new, and thoroughly unpleasant feeling and one I hope I don’t experience
again.
Over recent months I have been
reflecting on Psalm 139, and I turned to it again this morning. It’s an amazing
Psalm with so much within it which God has used to encouraged, provoke and
inspired me – and this morning he did so again. Here are the first six verses:
Psalm 139:1 to 6. (NLT)
1 O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
2 You know
when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far
away.
3 You see
me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
4 You know
what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
5 You go
before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
6 Such
knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!
Let’s look at verses one to four as
this sets the context in which we can view verse five and six. God has
examined my heart; he knows my deepest feelings and some of them are not pretty!
He knows everything about me, good and bad. He knows my every physical act, and
what I am thinking; wherever I am he knows everything I do; in fact, he knows
me so well that he knows what I am going to say before I do. God knows each of
us inside out, warts and all.
Now let’s jump to verse six. Its
clear that the author of this Psalm considers something wonderful has been revelled
to them in verse five. They can scarcely take in this wonderful knowledge; it’s
blowing their mind. So, what’s so special about verse five?
“You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of
blessing on my head.”
The hand of blessing bit is for me already mind blowing amazing, but we will get to that later.
Over many generations the bible has
been translated into several English versions from the original text, each
trying to accurately reflect the original whilst translating it into the contemporary
English of the day. The above is quoted from the New Living Translation. In the
alternative New International Version (NIV) the first sentence of verse five is
translated as “You hem me in behind and before.” This morning I read the NIV
version of this Psalm, and to be be honest the idea of being hemmed in did not evoke
warm fussy feelings for me! But the Psalm author seems to think it’s amazing, why?
The Psalm was originally written in
Hebrew, and the term used for ‘hemmed in’ in the original text is ‘tsuwr’. Which
also translates into English as “to confine, bind, besiege”. Being besieged sounds even worse
than being hemmed in!
To understand why the author of
Psalm 139 was getting so excited we need to examine some other instance of the
word ‘tsuwr’. Psalm 34:7 “The angel of the Lord (tsuwr) encamps around those who fear
him, and delivers them”; Psalm 125:2 “As the mountains (tsuwr) surrounded Jerusalem, so
the Lord surrounds his people…”
And so, the light bulb switched on
in me this morning; the experience the author of the Psalm 139 is relating to
is an overwhelmingly positive experience - despite God knowing what I feel,
think, do and say his response is not to abandon my, rather my loving Lord and God is protectively
encircling me from front to back. That’s an experience of being hemmed in that is comforting and wonderful :-)
But, that’s not all, the Psalmist
also says about the Lord “You place your hand of blessing on my head”. Putting your hand
on someone or something in the bible can signify a variety of different things,
not all are good. The great news is that in this context the significance is lavishly
positive! It’s a hand of blessing. In Genesis 48 we read of Jacob, the father
of Joseph (Joseph was the the guy with the multi-coloured coat), meeting his two grandchildren
for the first time. Embracing them and then reaching out and placing his hand
upon their heads and blessing them, asking God to bless them and declaring that
people in the future would aspire to be like them and would ask God for their children
to emulate the successes of Josephs sons. If this is the outcome of Jacob laying
his hands on his grandchildren and blessing them, how much more wonderful is
the blessing of the Lord our God placing his hand on our heads!
And the mind-blowing bit, Jacob did not know his grandchildren
and he blessed them. God fully knowing me, and my unsuitability hugs me and
places his hand on my head and blesses me.
As the Psalmist says, this knowledge
is to wonderful for me, and it blows my mind.